I grew up in a Christian home and have always had a good view of God, unfortunately I haven't had that same experience with church and Christians. Once I forgive and get over something it is extremely easy for me to fall into getting duped all over again. I unfortunately have been very susceptible to falling prey to controlling, legalistic, cult like Christian churches. This poem is about one of my more heartbreaking experiences, where the people I trusted were really manipulating me, controlling me and using me. I am thankful to God that once again I am being healed and learning to trust again, but no longer will I be a fool allowing myself to be used and controlled. There must be a balance and I will find that balance.
My encounter with cannibals
My heart was the bell pepper you chopped up
